I get tired of the lying voices in my head that speak a constant barrage of negativity.
What keeps them alive is their longterm residency in my head, and sheer familiarity that made my listening to them a habit.
Isn’t that what we fall into, habits of thought? Bad habits, but we don’t realize it. Self-limiting or self-destructive habits. Most of them rooted in fear. Fear of what? Failure most likely. Fear, fear, fear, fear.
We are asked in 12-step recovery to, after taking a “searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves”, to “Admit to God, ourselves, and to another human being, the exact nature of our wrongs”.
In my experience, the exact nature of most of our wrongs is fear. Fear leads us to compromise. Fear can lead us to steal, lie, cheat, cut corners, be unkind to others, put on a front of arrogance, just to name a few.
What can we do about this ever-present fear in us? Can we shut it off, learn to ignore it? Drown it out with other thoughts?
I think so.