It struck me today, why do so many people want to be “the envy of all”?
I have been there. There was a time when something in me desired this. Not any more. Thank God.
So what is this desire? Does the envy of others provide validation that we have significance? Does the envy of others medicate our insecurities?
This desire has been an acceptable vice in many of the supposedly healthier environments I have been a part of such as Church and AA. At least as I have experienced them.
It is perfectly fine to out-do fellow congregation members with a nicer suit, nicer car, nicer home, nicer family. Not that these things in and of themselves are bad. But there had been little resistance to the runaway envy over such things.
And in AA, I have seen and experienced innumerable forms of attention-seeking and one-upmanship. Ever experience, “the parade of chips”, when chips are given out publicly to recognize sober time by the months?… and the struts that many engage and outfits they wear to walk to the front of the room and receive their chip?
My intent was not so much to complain or criticize, but rather to highlight, examine, and discuss.
Thoughts on why we do this and why it tends to be permissible in circles that seek healthier ways to live and think?